Wow....Melissa would be 31 today...and probably freaking out too....(that part makes me smile!) Oh boy...do I miss her so incredibly much!! She drove me crazy....but I loved her completely! She will always be my little sis...my mom bought balloons today for the boys to bring to the cemetery. They got to put a balloon for Meliss and for laney....except Milo's "dora" balloon went up to visit Alana in heaven. Soon as the door to the van opened....out it went! He was very disappointed...but when I told him it was going to heaven he nodded and said "with Jesus and auntie jo"...break my heart! Though it does warm my heart to know that he knows who Meliss and Laney are! He points them out in pictures. Meliss used to call Milo her Cabbage Patch baby...when she first laid eyes on him, she giggled and said he looks like a cabbage patch and his name is just like a cabbage patch too! Though she only knew Milo for 9 short weeks, she loved him to pieces! Always holding him and squeezing him and kissing him! I will forever cherish those moments!
We went to dinner tonite with the 'family'. My family and inherited family. My brothers friends and Kareem and his family. IT's always nice to be with them on such occasions! It's always a hard day. I find myself crabby and short of patience. Usually with a headache for whatever reason. Today was really no different. My friend emailed me today and said she was thinking of me and wondered if it gets any easier...she lost her father a few short months ago....and sadly, no, it doesn't get easier. In some ways it gets harder and harder. But God's GRACE is sufficient for us all! HE promises that! And when life has been thrown to pieces, and you only have HIM....His Grace....is overwhelmingly enough!!!
People still ask how we've done it....done what? having our feet hit the ground every morning...going through your routine....? That's the easy part. LOving someone or the plural form thereof..is the hardest of all!!! And again, when you lean on God....there is only HIS way! The only way!
God never promised us an easy life....but he did promise us eternal life...so, if I can get through THIS life, I've got it made in the shade when the time comes!
Happy Birthday sweet daring meliss!!! I love you like frogs love flies!!!
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I'm glad that you were able to all get together and celebrate Melissa! I can only imagine how hard it must be though! May God continue to fill you and your family with His peace! Love you!
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